Biofield Tuning

Session #2: Heart Chakra & Left Foot

I had my second biofield tuning session today. My practitioner, Michelle, with Love Sound Therapy, worked on my heart chakra (both sides—one side connected to grief, depression sadness and the other tied to caretaking/taking on others needs before your own) and my left foot (related to feeling stuck and unable to move).

Much like the last one, I felt things very intensely, and a wide range of emotions. They changed from one point to another. One moment I may feel relaxed and smiling, doing the involuntarily deep breathing again. The next, I’m weepy and feeling very sad and emotional and with no memory attached to it. That is a strange sensation. Hard to make sense of cognitively.

Michelle would tell me what ages she was at and then look to me, seeming to ask if I recalled anything in particular at that time period. But I did not. I could guess about a few of the later ages. But many of the ones were during childhood, some before I had many clear memories.

Though the truth is, I also grew up in a dysfunctional home, a volatile and unstable environment, with an alcoholic father. So there were many, many, MANY times that there was screaming and swearing and shouting and slamming things, emotional abuse and threats. There was verbal abuse and manipulation. So, it stands to reason that there would be many of those moments, even if I can’t recall them, specifically, anymore.

The feeling stuck and inability to move beyond or outside of the situation though, I definitely remember feeling that many times. And wanting that for my mother and I, especially. I remember trying to convince her that we should leave, that it was better to go. She could not, for a variety of reasons. But it makes sense that I would feel that way, trapped, as a child.

I am certain the depression and sadness was also picking up on my mother’s grief, trauma, depression, as a child, caring for her and wanting to help her shoulder this burden.

The strangest and most intense sensation was in my throat, connected again, to my throat chakra. I felt a lump in my throat, and sometimes it felt abuzz. At points my body felt weighted down and my hands tingly.

It’s so bizarre, especially with no touching or contact involved.

At the end of the session, she did a few minutes of Reiki on me that was very relaxing.

My throat had continued to feel funny and so she told me to sing/belt out my favorite song, sing along to it on the radio on the way back. So, I did.

It feels better, though still a little funny. I guess it is to be expected because, like with EMDR, the body or the energy field is still at work for a few days after the session ends.

It’s all so very bizarre.

I realized today, as I was explaining to my aunt, about my experiences and what I’ve read about the practice in both of Eileen Day McKusick’s books, how strange and ‘woo woo’ it sounds. I can hear it, as I’m describing it, somewhat perhaps judgmental of myself? So conditioned we are by western medicine or metaphysics to explain everything. To only trust empirical science and data/proof/hardcore evidence.

But Eileen makes a great case for why/how energy fields have been overlooked and downplayed, not because there aren’t precedence for them but because they’re hard to quantify. So, scientists have tended to sweep under the rug or skirt over bioelectromagnetic energy and consciousness, and aether and plasma, because it can’t fit into the models we have and we can’t quantify/prove it…yet. But, what we often though was woo woo and science fiction—in many many areas—are now regularly accepted facts or truths of science.

I think it’s easier for me to accept because I have faith and I do think that there is a lot we don’t understand about our consciousness, our souls, our universe’s emanation, our human existence, that all the best science that we have can’t yet explain.

I did take notice of something else during this time—

All of my deep-breathing, and feeling of shifting energy, that was so intense…Michelle felt it too. We would often be deep-breathing at the same time--overlapping with inhales and exhales.

I asked her about it, curious. She said she felt energy and the best way to keep it moving was through her, aided by deep breath and breathing. Always the empath, I was concerned. I thought about some of the real heavy shit that I’ve been through and I didn’t want to burden her with it.

I guess biofield tuning practitioners use an approach called hollow bone, where they engage in deep breathing and set an intense of acting as a conduit for someone else’s energy, and allowing their biofield and the energy there to lead. And with the guiding help of the forks, they guide the energy to move along, integrating it back where it belongs, so the body/field/aura and chakras, whatever can re=integrate the stuck or stagnant energy. (Aware, once again, of how woo-woo it sounds, as I write this.)

But truly, as we are both doing this deep breathing, the practitioner and I, I had a moment of being…somewhat grateful.

While part of me was concerned that she may feel too much the pain of what I endured, there was also a part of me that…felt grateful. It’s been a lot. And when she had said that she had chills as energy moved through her, and also felt intense sensations in her throat, mirroring my own throat chakra, I felt finally…

Not alone.

That is a big thing, especially for someone like me who—

I don’t know anyone else who has had two suicides in the immediate family.

(Yeah, yeah, I know we all have pain and different horrendous things that happen to us. I am not comparing. I am simply saying that—I went looking for those with similar, relatable experiences. I didn’t find them, quite the same, the magnitude and intensity.

I was the anomaly even at the suicide survivor support group, after all.)

So, I felt like someone was ‘there’ with me and even if my proximity, was feeling some of the intensity of the emotions of my lived, embodied experiences.

I don’t know. Strange, but it gave me a sense of gratitude. Especially after knowing/believing that it wouldn’t stick with her and that I wasn’t harming her.)

I am going to soak with my salt and let it absorb and hydrate, as well as walk around barefoot outside, as instructed.

Again, I sit with the qualia or experience that I just had…fully aware that I don’t quite ‘get it’, disturbed that I can’t adequately describe it, but fully assured that I don’t have to make it sense for others. I cannot/will not deny my own embodied experience.

I may not be able to full describe it—At least not yet. I do have hopes and plans to become certified and a trained biofield tuning practitioner myself in the near future. But, for now, I’ll simply say this:

I’m glad it works. I am glad others have hypothesized it and understand it more than I do and have been trained in it. And I am grateful that I am open-minded enough to try things that I can’t fully grasp, that are woo-woo sounding.

I don’t have to get it for it to work.

I am also a faithful person. I may not fully subscribe to the dogma of organized religions, but I do believe in the message and life of Christ and I believe in God/a Divine Creator.

In short, I believe in “the hope of things unseen.”

Now, to rest.

To end—I highly recommend readers try a biofield tuning session, especially if you have chronic pain, intergenerational trauma, have a traumatic or rocky childhood.

Life-changing, mind-blowing and mind-boggling, are the only words/phrases I can think of to adequately describe the process and healing that results.

I feel lighter.