Rewiring our bodily trauma and circuitry

EMDR, Biofield tuning, Energy healing

I have written before here about the life-changing healing that I experienced through EMDR therapy and biofield tuning and energy healing.

But today I heard a quote from a clinical psychologist that gave me great pause:

"By about age three, there's 75% of our earliest circuitry or wiring is in place, always amenable to rewriting. But 75% is a lot of percent for years that you can no longer verbally remember."

"The first three years you remember with your body, which, as adults, we know, is a much more powerful form of memory than the things that we can recall and storytelling. Because our body memories dictate our triggers and reactivity and assumptions and our knee-jerk reactions."

~Dr. Becky Kennedy

This quote is indeed scary, realizing that we are so influenced from experiences so early that we can’t recall them or contextualize them, or apply any adult logic to…

It begs the question—how do we access them, and rewire that which we don’t remember, that we don’t know? How can talk therapy and psychotherapy help then?

I think that this is likely why—for me—the most effective therapy and healing has taken place from energy healing like biofield tuning and EMDR.

Precisely because I was born into an unstable family. This is not blaming my parents, but rather, with the motive of seeking to understand my own wiring.

These are the facts:

I was not planned. My mother was excited to have me but scared because the situation at home was unstable and volatile. She had experienced horrendous post-partum depression with my brother, not sleeping for a year. This influenced her so much for the rest of her life that she referred to this time period as “her dulling.” My father was already an alcoholic, volatile and with a bad temper.

Those are the things that I know about the background to contextualize them.

There’s so much that I don’t know. But I know that they are there. That my body remembers them.

And I know this because when I sat in my biofield tuning sessions, and my tuner worked during those early years, gestation, infancy, before or around age 3, there was a lot of junk to work through.

Did I remember any of it? No.

But I do remember the visceral body reaction of profound and deep sadness. I heard it in the sound of the notes of the forks’ vibration, resounding from my body, my energy field.

The sound was sobering, deep, it just sounded so sad.

And I felt so teary, so overcome by emotion. I felt child-like, helpless, vulnerable, desperate, lonely, unsafe.

I believe what Dr Kennedy says, that this is true regarding our primary years and the effect it has on our circuitry.

In light of this truth, we could feel hopeless, desperate, hopelessly fucked.

But—

That is why I take heart and I am so incredibly thankful for these therapies and methods of healing involving the body and ways to access our experiences to help us with this rewiring and new circuitry.

I am so thankful to be able to learn about what others have discovered.

I am deeply grateful that I live in an era where there is the internet and I have access to so much information. That I can learn from so many others and their stories and journeys.

I am thankful that I can share what I have learned with others, those who are also seeking healing but uncertain about where to go.

If something I have learned can help them…the way that others have helped me, then I guess I have a purpose in life.

And, ultimately, I welcome more of this healing into my life, universe.

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